Monday, May 20th, 2002
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1:54 am - What a friend is for
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So I did what I've wanted to do which is start talking to my old friends and catch up on what I've miss during the last year or so. Tonight on icq, I've told to my good old friend from Japanese class and one of my friends from school who went to a different school starting this year.
Well, let's just say that my friend from jap school cheer me up and put a smile on my face during my bad times by saying, "don’t worry, just smile and life will show you how wonderful everything is. have faith and never think negatively."
current mood:  happy
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12:20 am - Emptiness
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For some reason, I feel very empty inside. I want to talk to old friends I've lost touch wit1h, including my ex boyfriend. Well, only one ex boyfriend but don't get me wrong, you can count all my ex on one hand. I tried to search for him on icq but I had no luck finding it. I seems like he has disappear even though he only lives a few mintues drive away from my house. I don't know what to do. I waste my entire Victoria Day Weekend and I just realized that I got tons of school work to do! AHHH I just wish I can find someone to give a hug to! I just want someone (a guy prefered) to let me borrow a shoulder and cry my heart out and share the unhappiness and even joy in my life...
current mood:  blank
current music: nothing...too late...parents are sleeping
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Saturday, May 18th, 2002
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1:40 am - WHOA! I'M BACK~
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Whoa! I can't believe the last time I updated this journal was in November! that was months ago but I'm BACK NOW! I find it very difficult to type right now because of my fake nails but they look so good! Anyway, wayy too much has happened that I just can't type it all out. Well, long story to a short story is that I don't chill with my old friends as much anymore because most of them either a) make me feel bad about myself or b) they get me soo angry because they're annoying people who doesn't know they've hurt your feelings until it's too late. I'm trying to get more involved in school events and activities but it's not going that well. I really want to go to Goo Goo Dolls' concert but since it's on a school night, my friend might not be able to come with me.
Anyway, it's 1 in the morning right now so I'll update this later!
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Friday, November 9th, 2001
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3:01 pm
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Monday, November 5th, 2001
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9:32 pm
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P.P.S. I would also like to give shouts and thanks to Fiona and Helen because Fiona was the one friend who got me to go to fellowship. Helen is my other friend who really understood during the good and bad times. u guys r like sisters to me and i'm so thankful to meet u two! *lots of hugs and kisses for u two*
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9:29 pm
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Theme ::: My Belief in GOD
Update ::: 11/05/2001
Welcome to my page~
Yes, I do Love God. He is my source of existence and Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be nothing. Without Him, I am nothing. But with Him, I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. Phil 4:13.
I've realized that after going to fellowship, my life has taken a good turn for once and I really believe in all the lessons and stories from fellowship. Thank you GOD for keeping my life balance.
P.S. thanks for sending me the emails on GOD, Kevin! ur da best!
current mood:  thankful
current music: Jay Chow + Miriam Yeung
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Monday, August 20th, 2001
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1:16 am
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As i was on AsianAvenue like always, i have noticed that everyone is talking about how they found who their true friends are and the people that are out of their life for good. It's pretty funny cuz this summer, I have finally realized who are gonna be there for me and who are not. All the friends i knew from 3 years or more ago are not my true friends. On the other hand, I realized that my true friends are those i knew last year and this year. They're great cuz they were there for me when i was really depressed again in the summer and throughout the year. My old friends didn't care and when i called them, they were NEVER home and they didn't give a damn about me and my problems. Well, that's life and it goes on. Let's hope i can keep my true friends forever cuz they're too valuable to lose.
current mood:  amused
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Thursday, August 16th, 2001
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1:45 pm
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well, mah bf did finally email me back but it was short and full of stupid excuses so i have decided i'm not gonna reply him back. i don't care if his email account doesn't work or how he will be flying to the States. I'm just gonna forget about him for a while and have fun this weekend. Hopefully, i'll be able to go to Pacific this friday and CNE this saturday cuz Jessica is still not sure if she can go on friday with me. anyway, that's all for now. i'll keep u updated soon on what's going on in mah life. bye for now.
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Monday, August 13th, 2001
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3:00 am
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there's one more problem that makes mah luv life sux! it's never the way i want it to be and it's just getting more and more complicated! firstly, mah bf who's on summer vacation this whole summer has not talk to me for 2 weeks now! no email, no call, no icq, no letter, no nothing! it seems to me that he's avoiding all contacts with me and some of mah friends think he found someone new. i'm thinking to mahself, No Way or at least hope that's not it. secondly, da major problem of mah life is there IS someone new who kinda found me. sure, it sounds like no big deal but it is to me and it's giving me a headache everytime i even think about it! i mean how am i suppose to choose from 2 guys...one is mah bf and da other one i hardly know. everything was ok when a guy from no where pops up and say he likes me. i'll most likely wait till mah bf comes back to see if we can work on our relationship and if the new guy doesn't have patient for that, then i know he's not rite for me! More updates on what will happened to da three of us as soon as something happens. P.S. wish me luck and let's all hope i do the right thing and everything works out for da three of us!
current mood:  confused
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Thursday, August 9th, 2001
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10:23 pm - Destiny's Child - Brown Eyes
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Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
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Thursday, August 2nd, 2001
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9:48 pm
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guess what ppl? i upgraded mah ram from 136 to 236! whoa, it's wayy faster and i got a new webcam too! but da webcam i paid for is in mah bro's room cuz mah computer doesn't have da outlet it needs! damn, u can see mah bro's messy room in da background! LOL
plus, i'm going to downtown with a few friends so that's good. da bad thing about it is that i'm da only gurl and all da guys r gonna complain once we start shopping for 5 mins.
da only bad thing about today was da fact da i know i'm gonna get a sixty something in english for summer school. if i get a sixty, damn i'm never going back to summer school since that's what i got for day school! i thought i would've been able to get at least a 70 percent but i'll find out tomorrow morning when i go and pick up mah report card.
current mood: happy
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Tuesday, July 31st, 2001
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8:35 pm
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i'm so relieved cuz mah bf finally email me after about a week and a half. i was worrie about him cuz of a few reasons but mostly because of the typhoon in taiwan and i just wanna to know if he was ok. well, it's great to hear from him again and i hope his dad's house doesn't flood but a lot of places r flooded as he told me.
current mood:  relieved
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Saturday, July 28th, 2001
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12:06 am - How Deep Is Your Love
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I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show
CHORUS:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And it's me you need to show
current mood:  calm
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Friday, July 27th, 2001
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3:27 pm
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summer is going fast and i haven't done anything yet. this year sux cuz i got no social life at all! everyone's on summer vacation and i don't know what happened to everyone but they all seem to ignore or avoid me in some way. at least i'm going to summer school so that can kill some time for me but everything about this year sux expect for going out with tom. he hasn't reply me back for about a week now and i'm worried about what happened to him. i hope i can contact him soon.
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Wednesday, July 25th, 2001
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11:39 pm
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Thought of the Day:
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and a minute of suspicion to destroy it.
Yes I think this statment is true but sad. No one ever trust anyone completely in this world and either can I. I've lost trust in people and it's gonna take a long time to rebuild this lost trust.
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Sunday, July 22nd, 2001
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2:38 pm
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"Pain is Love" by Ja Rule.
Recently, I've been going through a lot of changes and i've been thinking a lot laterly. i wonder if anyone still cares about me and i wonder all these pain i've been feeling will ever go away. let's hope they do but meanwhile, let's just play some our lady peace and alice keys song. lates
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2:34 pm - this is how i feel laterly
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Life
How many times have you been pushed around? Was anybody there? Does anybody care? How many time have your friends let you down? Was anybody there? Did anybody stare?
How many time have your friends let you down? Just open up your heart Just open up your mind How many times has your faith slipped away? Well, is anybody safe? Does anybody pray?
Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we're alive Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we'll survive
How many days have you just slept away? Is everybody high? Is everyone afraid? How many times have you wished you were strong? Have they ever seen your heart? Have they ever seen your pain?
Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we're alive Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we'll survive
She gets high She gets lost She gets drowned by the cost Twice a day, every week, not a lie
She gets high She gets lost She gets drowned by the cost Twice a day, every week, not a lie
Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we're alive Oh, Life is waiting for you So messed up, but we'll survive All messed up, but we'll survive.
current mood:  depressed
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Saturday, July 21st, 2001
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12:49 am
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 Yesterday, I saw Save the Last Dance and it was sucha wicked movie!! I really enjoy watching it and i watched all those special features since i rented it on DVD. i really like the plot and all of the characters were great actor and actress. after seeing that movie, i got the theme song in mah head and da video too! this movie was sucha sweet and hip movie that can really make you think about the society and the way of living for many black and white people. go rent it if you haven't!!
current mood:  mellow
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Thursday, July 19th, 2001
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1:09 am
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current love status: confused
yes, i'm confused about mah love status cuz i'm still with mah bf but i don't think i want to go out with him anymore. one part of me tells me to break up with him cuz i've already lost feelings for him but another part of me tells me to wait and see what happens and try to work everything out with him. i don't know what to do about this cuz it's an important decision for me since i've been with mah bf for almost 5 months now. he has always kept me company when i was bored so i feel very lonely without him by mah side. therefore, i'm confused, lonely and sad at da same time. i also need time to figure out what to do with my relationship with bf.
current mood: confused
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Saturday, July 14th, 2001
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1:07 am
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well, things sounds bad but it's not...i think it's actually getting better cuz me and him r becoming closer friends each day. let's hope we keep this connection throughout this summer and so on. and we both luv da Usher - U Remind Me song! it's da best! haha
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